I have the first of three law exams in three days. I am very anxious, as I haven't sat an exam in, oh, about ten years. I wondered whether a booty call would relax me, but now I am having second thoughts, for a number of reasons:
1. Having to pre-arrange something in advance via facebooko/email removes an element of spontaneity. I sent E a message yesterday to see if he wanted to meet up tonight or tomorrow. He responded to say that either is fine and it is up to me.
2. This approach of pre-arranged, sober, let's just meet up to have sex sort of thing is making me a bit anxious, rather than relaxed - especially when I am already anxious about exams.
3. We never really made plans to hang out together before, so it clearly is only about the sex.
4. I would probably feel the need to have a few drinks in order to bring some order to chaos, or lubricant to what might seem like an odd situation, but in order to keep my brain fresh, it is probably better if I don't drink for the next few days.
5. I feel like I should get up early tomorrow morning, feeling fresh, in order to continue with my revision. this involves not waking up with someone else, perhaps slightly hungover.
6. I am worried that the sex will not make me feel better because:
a. I'm anxious and not relaxed, or
b. it will make me think of AJ and leave me feeling disappointed.
The fact that I can list 6 second thoughts is rather troubling, and i wonder if it would be better if I do not continue with any pre-arranged booty call prior to my exams.
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