here we go again

My annual work garden party was on Wednesday. Having not seen E for about 2 months (since we last discussed the possibility of having some some no-strings-attached-sex), I decided to invite him. He cleans up nice and makes for an entertaining date, and I thought he would like the old-time venue: Middle Temple. He said yes and was more reliable then usual.

We had a lovely time - better than most previous garden parties, partly because the weather was good, partly because of the company, and partly because I didn't get as drunk as usual. I should say that I did have in mind drinking less because of the possibility of getting laid (the first time since splitting with AJ I might add).

After the garden party ended we went along with my co-workers to our usual post-garden-party pub and carried on drinking. Then snogging. Then talking about how much we wanted to have sex with each other.

He then said a rather peculiar thing: "I'd really like to fuck you, but I should tell you first that I am in love with someone else." Well, that was a bit of a passion killer. But not for long - I got over it, because the girl he is in love with lives in Australia. Silly man. He made up for it by telling me that he had had the best sexual experience of his life with me. I then nearly ripped his shirt off in the alley way outside the pub.

We went back to mine and had slightly drunken, but rather fun in a tired/drunk sort of way, sex. We then slept, and fucked again in the morning, before he left to go home in order to get ready for work, and I got in the shower to get ready for my own job. It was very comfortable and we had a rather sweet goodbye kiss.

So now I am being warned by friends: do not let yourself get sucked in. "I won't" I say. But its hard. I have known him for about two and a half years, and I do think I am a little bit in love with him. However, in all the time we have known each other, he has eluded me. We talked a bit that night about how we would make both a great and terrible couple.

And so it goes, my unrequited love has been ever so slightly reignited. But I am doing my best to quash it before it causes any trouble. To that end, I am meeting a man from an internet dating site tomorrow afternoon. Not that I want a boyfriend...